Every year November is a time for me to reexamine my life, myself, and my hopes and dreams for the future. It is a time when I look at the past year and say, “What did I accomplish?” “How have I grown?” “How would I have liked to grow more?” “What things do I wish I could have done differently?”. To me November is the perfect month to do this and ask myself these questions. For one, November is when the leave start falling, things become bare–the limbs of the trees become visible. Also November is a time of joy and relationships. We get to embrace our families and our friends in this colorful scenery. November is also a time for thanksgiving. We get to look back at the past year and say, “I am thankful for…” This is the most beautiful month… not to mention my birthday is this month!
Unfortunately somehow November always creeps up on me and it always comes with things that I can’t explain. Whether that be circumstances that I don’t understand or decisions that don’t have answers. Regardless, this month is my favorite.
I have realized that in the past few months I have become extremely disconnected with myself. I have lost sight of many of the things I always dreamed and aspired for my life. Its hard for me to verbalize what has been going on inside of me. But I know that the leaves are falling away and that the branches are now starting to show. Things that I had forgotten about or had tried to cover up are finally making their way back into eye’s sight.
I’m ready to find me. To find what I want for my life. To rediscover my dreams and hopes. To see who I am and who I want to become. I’m excited to become ME.
So weird… a huge percentage of the people I know are going through the same process right now. Actually started more like a month ago, but autumn starts earlier up here in the north. Maybe it is a weather thing.
Sometimes I think we look too hard – Embrace those family members and friends and trust in what you know to be the Truth! I had to learn that all over again this past week – and had to remember that God is always on time even when I wonder what He is up to.